I've always loved you

Before you knew my name

When we were just mere strangers

The star fell from the sky

landed

in your eye

I didn’t suspect, but even then

I knew

I’ve always loved you.

From the failed attempt of romance

My heart clawed at my throat

Floating above ground in lock with you steps

In spasm hiding one

Simple

Truth:

I’ve always loved you.

I disappeared without words or traces

In silence I turned my back

Hid in July night’s thousand faces

Insulting heavy tears on my back.

I’ve always loved you.

When lie melts into all world I’ve known of

You’ll come back in silence,

And all locks breaking.

I have no way out, for as long as I live

Wounded, the heart is still yours for taking.

I’ve always loved you.

2014

Heavenly

The Sun is shining ever so brighter

Ripping open shutters of my dreamy eyes
Piercing my dreams, this heavenly fighter
This time not bringing terror,
demise.

As I wait in silence, heart starts to revolt
Who dares disturbing my dreams of old?
Heavenly rain, nor this lightning bolt
Cannot revive heart covered in mold.

Minute after minute, ticking away
Needles of clock
slashing my ears.
Again to false hope should I fall pray?
Or with darkness abound should I make peace?

Run, retreat under your covers
Search through the old, so familiar graves
Old ghosts of pasts won’t help your desires
Nor understand what your soul now craves.

Stop running!
Turn!
Look at those eyes!
The eyes you see when you close your own.
This can be heaven.
This could be demise.
But cannot be worse than your own soulless mourn.

I turn.
I look.
With my eyes open,
Falling on my knees in righteous awe.
You, I’ve been waiting, while by world broken
I hid what most I wanted to show.

Touch me, for once…
Don’t be afraid
See that I’m not what world’s made me to be.
The wit and mind, and all those sharp blades
Hide in your softness…
Let no one see.

So desperately I try to breathe you in
While you quietly sleep and dream on my arm
I hold it.
Remember it
And from within
I let myself hope in spite of the harm.

And though there are dreams that cannot die
Nightly they keep me breathlessly awake
It is you lighting the spark in my eye
Making me realize what’s ours is to take.

I want to take you, follow the Sun
Avoid the darkness, ever so cleverly
I’ll try to make this dream with you
Last forever.
You, who make me feel
Oh, so
Heavenly

2014